AggressiveExposureDaily

I was leading a dangerous life
Gambling with my freedom and even my life
childhood trauma’s had twisted my sight
insecurities had taken over,
I was confused about life,
unsure of what was after being hurt from a loved one,
took the hurt and stuck to the tough one,
bonding I connected to trauma
leading to abuse, it created the noose.
Fighting my own battle I had to reach out to touch the light, the only support I had,
I had to reach to pull myself out realizing that myself was the biggest fight to fight.
Old patterns and broken ways,
slowly I removed myself, opening up doors to different and new ways,
estranged from the game,
No longer interested I stopped investing in the same ol thangs
I was hanging around,
I was invisioning my new sacred grounds,
the rose colored glasses faded as I
walked away seen them
as they crashed slamming to the ground,
the lenses being removed
reminiscing on those things
that once attempted to taking me down by keeping me trapped trapping while living the same ol life in the same ol hood,
outlasted so many I realized what I needed
this life wasn’t living,
I lifted myself so far
up above
the games being played no longer did I choose I needed to entertain.
Took a look inside never again did I get close to looking back or looking the same,
I walked away for a selfish reason,
I realized that my child and I
Our lives were the greatest of all selfish reasons and why.

-Paula Lopez –